Monday, February 18, 2013

Eternal Rest


I just read an OBIT....

It said, "John Doe entered into eternal rest on May 10 "...

It shocked me.  I mean, whenever my time comes....no way do I want to think about it as I am entering into eternal rest, for haven sake.   No way!  I want to think that I am going into a new world that is happier, brighter, more loving and lots of fun.  I surely don't want 'eternal rest'.  God, I feel like I have had that in this life....LOL.  

I just know the next chapter of my life will be more uplifting.  I know this because....My sister, Joyce, came back and told me so.  She was happy, laughing, and full of joy...she also was chasing boys in heaven...she was always a flirt. And she made me smile and be happy for her in that world I could only wonder abou so many years ago.  When young she tried to teach me to flirt ...but I never caught on. Maybe in my next life I will do better.

No Eternal Rest for me I told my children....do not write that in my death notice!  

Write......that I have entered a whole new chapter of life prepared to dance and sing or make music in a variety of ways. Or...

Say that I have gone to help the wind blow through the branches of trees. 

Say that I have embarked on an eternal trip around this world to see what I had missed.  

Say that....that I have entered a new world where I can watch over others for love never dies.  

Say something suited to me...something more interesting, something more active, and something more profound.  Yes, something more profound.  That is me.

Not sure just what but I have a lot of time to think of something good. :-)

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Who does see


I always wanted to have a talent. Always wished I could dance, sing, paint....something.

If I had a talent, obvious it was not.

I searched in my mind. I looked around. I thought surely someday I would find that one thing that shined through my hands, voice, or act.

But...Time went on.

I wondered if others might know something of me that I do not.  

Are the eyes of others bigger than mine, opened wider, filled with sunlight?

Or is it, that I see me as real, a simple person standing on this earth with heartfelt love at the core.

Is that enough?

…To each their own.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

No health insurance....Oh my.


No insurance?  Oh my

I am one of those 'throw away' people that our medical society does not care about. I have no health insurance like a zillion other people in this great nation.  If I was poor enough, they would give me health insurance for free.  If I was old enough social security would be of some help.  If I was considered 'middle' class, I could afford health insurance.  But, I fall between the cracks.  There is nowhere for me to turn.

Hence, the doctors 'patch' you up and send you on your way, knowing full well you are not cured and before long all the symptoms will return and you will right back at their door.  They can't afford to treat individuals without health insurance.  If you do have it, tests are preformed to get to the bottom of the problem so you can be treated right from the start. Otherwise, only the basic is done.

And medications....well, if you have no health insurance....don't even bother trying to get an Rx filled at the pharmacy without having to sell your house or something first.  It is unreal.  

People like me.....no one cares about us.

Do you know how many times I have had health insurance at my jobs throughout my life.....dozens that I paid into and never used as I was healthy as a horse, as the saying goes.  Each time my job ended...so did the health insurance.  I spent thousands of dollars previously on insurance and now that I need it, none are available.  Oh the government will tell you it is out there…and it is, at a price beyond logic.

So I am trapped in a vicious circle.

I am a Throw-Away. I am part of the Ones no one wants to think about as far as the government and medical society is concerned.  Proof that....money talks.

You don't have health insurance…oh well.  Then you better have a burial fund.